Robert Frost, table for 1 please

STOPPING BY WOODS ON A SNOWY EVENING

Whose woods these are I think I know.
His house is in the village though;
He will not see me stopping here
To watch his woods fill up with snow.

My little horse must think it queer
To stop without a farmhouse near
Between the woods and frozen lake
The darkest evening of the year.

He gives his harness bells a shake
To ask if there is some mistake.
The only other sound's the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.

The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

I hate the alarm clock

Because it tells me what to do. And half the time I'm looking at it thinking of you.

I'm tired.

Trapped in front of a computer

Last night got very silly at Shovelhead initiation and so I woke up late and hungover. That is a horrible combination. As such I've been trapped in front of my computer all day playing catch up and even though I continue to work I feel like I'm not making any progress which is a horrible feeling to have. But I guess that is all part of the fun.

Sometimes I look outside my window but then remember I live in a basement so my view is of an ally. Also I barely get any light so it is always dark making it hard to tell what time it is. I've literally woken up at 11 and thought it was early morning because it was so dark. I gotta get off that hype and get back to regular sleeping habits. Bed at 4am and awake by 11 is no bueno.

I Wonder

Do professors ever read all the stuff that they make us read? I can't believe these people actually read these books. If they do then it is clear that I shouldn't be a professor because this stuff is just downright silly. What's the point of reading two different things that say the same thing? So they can validate each other? I don't buy that.

But then again I'm the lucky 1% that gets to read this stuff.

"Of course we're disappointed, we see college on tv and in our dreams it becomes a social fantasy, where chords are lose and beautiful girls gone wild, and guys are smart sex built confident in their style, where it's ok to be gay (heyy), and youre free to explore, where you can trade in your virginity for being a whore, where you can finally find a place for people like you, and make things happen without their funky attitudes, and learn the tools that you need helping you decide what youre going to do with your life and how to do it right. To most of all be independent and grow strong and finally feel like you found a place where you belong. Then we get here shattering your expectations playing your hopes and fears and if it isn't rejection it's a lack of selection because all the ugly ones want to get in but the pretty ones want to be your friend and these rich kids have tons of beer but can you really just get drunk and blazed all year you look for something more but what is there to do and suddenly you feel trapped by the people around you so you join some clubs and make some friends but it seems youre seeing the same people again and again and they're making it feel like life is taking too long and with all the exaggeration they make you feel like youre doing college wrong and girls are like "omg I met this guy" but they forget to mention that he is gap toothed and cock eyed. And guys are like "yeah dude at that party I got head from a freshman" but leave out the results of the STD testing. And then there is the kids who sit in their dorms isolated online playing games using AIM to tell their friends they hate it and that they're going back home this weekend to visit to lie in their own bed with fresh clothes and linens. Then there are the kids that you never really talk to but you know them well because they're your myspace facebook stalkers (don't poke me). Classes got you stressed youre trying to do your best you gotta wake up at 8 to two essays and a test and guess what you just heard about this banging party and this chick that be attending is this hot little shorty and now sorry I went instead of doing my paper can i hand it in late for a slightly lower grade or extra credit? But this isn't high school there arent any demerits. There is no excuses. No mistakes. Nobody cares a bit. And that's the beautiful thing. See no matter how mature on the phone or go home we're in college now we're all on our own. We have to supply the fire to burn inside to deny any thoughts of failure and try to survive. And whether youre keeping your head above water or swimming the farthest we tred the hardest because we fear the sharkets. Because if you don't realize how blessed you are you become just another number just another star in the sky of thousands so remember your light is astounding and youre lucky to be here whether you came here from the burbs or public housing. There's nothing depressing about it. Youre in the prime of your life and youre surrounded by a million stories so take the time to learn them and make some action. Because if these are the best years in our life only we can make them happen." - Nyle

At Random

I'm selecting a random song on iTunes then writing for the duration of the song. I will do this for 5 songs No idea what I'm writing about or what the song will be. Hopefully the writing will come based on the song decision.

In The Mood - Glenn Miller

Alright this is quite a choice iTunes made for me. I've always loved this song and thought it bizarre and sad that Glenn Miller and his band died in a plane crash. Anyway whenever I hear this song my mind is transported to the 1940s. I see a big open dance hall with the band blaring and the horn section going out of control. The floor is packed with American servicemen in uniform and they are dancing the night away with wives, girlfriends, one night stands, etc. For just a few short minutes they arent thinking about when they're shipping out or the chaos that is taking place on two fronts. These were crazy times in American History. Uncertainty.

But we got through it. Yes, terrible things happened. But we got through it.

Song just ended.

Next up: City by Sara Bareilles

I just got her album and this is the first time I've heard this song. I remember seeing her at Sun God this year with Shane. Before then I only knew her because of "Love Song." This sounds like a good rainy day song so it is appropriate for today. She just asked if she could hold me. The answer for you Sara Bareilles is always yes. Every time. I'm not writing very fast because I go back and forth from thinking about what's on my mind to listening to the song.

Next up: Hot Fun in The Summertime- Sly and the Family Stone

Oh this song just makes me miss summer. Those summer days are most def when I have most of my fun back. Hi Hi Hi there. What is it about summer that makes it so longed for? I think it has to be the long days and lack of real responsibility. Man I don't want to get a job. Where is the fun then? In the working world there is no summer. Just vacation days and in the US we don't even get very many. Damn, I wonder what would have happened if I used the money my parents spend a year on tuition and bought that many lotto tickets. Would I win? What if I did? Like one of those multi-million ones. Then everyday could be summer. Especially if it was one of those $350 million ones, then my friends owuldnt have to work either because what do I need with $350 million? That would be sick. I need to get on that and stop going to college!

Yester-Me, Yester-You, Yesterday - Stevie Wonder

Well this is just sad. I guess it kind of covers a lot of what has been on my mind. Very appropriate Stevie. I don't know what it is about Stevie Wonder but he has always been my favorite. Maybe it is his lyrics or just the warmth I feel that he brings to every song. I wonder what the world is like to him. I've always wondered what it would be like to be born blind. What must you picture in your mind when you hear a car? How must you think the world works? What would happen if Stevie Wonder could just see all of a sudden? Would his whole image of the world be turned upside down or does he have it right? I don't know. What must it be like to never see a sunset or stare in awe at the Mona Lisa?

Number 5: Somewhere Over The Rainbow- Tony Bennett

This song has gotten me out of more rough times then I care to remember. It gives me hope and I think there are a lot of songs that fulfill the same thing for many different types of people. I just like the imagery in the song. Knowing that there is a step just beyond the rain. I like to think that there is always somewhere better. I guess part of this song is sad because the little blue birds fly beyond the rainbow and I can't but one day. Why or why can't I? Well who said I couldn't? That's why I like Tony Bennett's version because he ends it with "Lets go there!" Im There.

Questions 67 and 68

In this life I find myself asking more questions and coming up with less and less answers. Is that life? The questions simple and the answers complex? Well those are two loaded questions in and of themselves.

Life used to be simple. If you colored inside the lines, ate the crusts, AND drank your milk then by golly you were solid. I was good at that. Ok, the lines took awhile but man I could eat the hell out of a crust. Wholegrain, white, multi-grain, didn't matter.

But these childhood tasks have evolved like I have. Now it's about going to class, reading 300pgs a night, making good decisions. Well, I guess in that case nothing has changed. What? The tasks are different but what they require is the same. Diligence, patience, and most importantly, self discipline.

But then there are those things in this life that make no sense. At least not to me. If they do to you my friend then please by all means explain them to me because I'm lost. There are things in this life that I was told were true and lasting. Perhaps I haven't found the real ones. I'm a miner with a claim full of fool's gold. Well that isn't paying the bills.

Problems have solutions. I like finding the solutions. It helps me better understand the problem. But there are some problems that don't make sense or shouldn't be problems all together. So how am I supposed to find a solution when I can't even identify the problem? Damn these questions.

Ok so I have some questions and maybe you have the answers.

Why are we here?
Where is here?
Why did God take you but leave them?
Where is the slow motion button on this life?
Where do I go from here?
Who is with me for the full ride?
Who am I with for the full ride?
Did I take a wrong turn?


Life is full of questions and I suppose the answers come in time while others will forever remain unanswered. But as for the secret of life, well that isn't a question at all. Just enjoy the passing of time.