"You don't understand! I coulda had class. I coulda been a contender. I could've been somebody, instead of a bum, which is what I am."

I've always thought I had this whole life thing figured out. You put in the hard work you get the reward, right? That is the American Dream after all. But of course life is going to throw you these curve balls and the problem is I was cut from baseball (twice) so how am I going to hit them out of the park?
A year ago I thought "in a year it will all be right and make sense" and now I look towards next year as being the answer. If anything over the year I have gone through many humbling experiences.
The wise Stacy Kaney pointed out in the summer of 2006 that it was a "summer of maturity" for me and I believe that the summer of 2007 was the beginning of another awakening for me. It has seen me defy gravity and cross this country. I have gone from looking out at the Pacific to looking towards the Atlantic. I've gone from three hours behind to three hours ahead. However, life is still influx and at this point the only person behind the wheel is me (perhaps I should wake up).
I realize as I continue to right that this post won't lead me towards any great resolution or realization about where I am or am supposed to be. And that is fine. I guess it is more important just to get this stream of conscience out.

All I can really say is that I hope a renaissance is on its way.