Response

Am I doing what I wish I was doing? No.

Simple answer, tough to arrive at. I can honestly say that I'm happy. I enjoy the day to day life but is being in college what I wish I was doing? Not at all. I'll be honest when I say I don't remember much of anything that I learned in high school. I can't remember how to balance a chemical equation, how to find the acceleration of a block of wood, nor the forces acting on it for that matter, most of the math I learned (ever), nor can I remember certain dates in history and their importance.

Rather I remember the relationships I forged in between the classes. Meeting and making meaningful connections with people is what I think it means to be human. You can think, you can feel, you can share.

So there are a million other places that I would rather be on this Saturday night then here in a dorm room with a pile of reading, papers unwritten, and tests to be studied for before Monday. But then again what does the future hold after all this? Perhaps, the ability to provide for those less fortunate than myself. Random acts of kindness, that is what I'm about. Oh you can't get a Christmas present for each of your children? Here is $500 go buy each of your kids 10 things. No you don't have to say thank you, it's my pleasure.

Sure, I rather be waking up each morning in The Bay not knowing where the day will take me. Instead, just knowing that I'd be doing my best to live that day to the fullest. But that isn't realistic right now. But in putting in the time and effort now I can help ensure that one day I will be doing what I want. It won't be today, nor tomorrow, nor 5 years from now but one day I'll be sitting in a circle with my closest friends, some already known, others not yet met, with a smile on my face because then I'll be doing what I want to be doing. Living life to the fullest with those individuals who make life worthwhile.


A thought:

Why do we spend billions funding NASA? Who really cares what the milky way looks like? Or exactly how hot it is on Venus or if there was ever water on Mars? If there is life out there they can come find us. Until then lets put those billions in the pockets of the struggling single parent, the homeless family, or working to pay off the nation debt.

Or we can continue to gather information on what the solar system looked like billions of years ago. Your call.